[29 Jul 2009|11:22pm] I am so sorry. I feel so guilty for not updating this, not really been keeping in touch. :( New is silver, but old is gold. I wish I could squish everything I loved in both singapore & perth into a single geographical co-ordinate. love lots. ( 1 ) drop a note;

[15 Jan 2009|11:18pm] Who says Hijabis can't have fun. I went SKY DIVING over Byron Bay!! Then Zorbing the next day! ( 7 ) drop a note;

[08 Jan 2009|12:06pm] whaaaaaahahaha air asia sucks! drop a note;

[24 Dec 2008|03:28am] Oh no, half the holidays have passed, and I havent even planned out my 'study'. I know it sounds stupid to study during the holidays, but believe me, I have been relaxing too much, been so sluggish, that I gotta focus on my self-enrichment. Because if I don't do it now, I know it's going to be much harder to do it when semester starts... And since I can't sleep, I might as well do something useful. I'm going to start with reviewing what I have learnt & knowledge & memory. Make notes & iA put it up! ( 2 ) drop a note;

[01 Sep 2008|09:57pm] Been busy much. Not really been LJ-ing much now. :) BUt RAMADHAN MUBARAK TO ALL THOSE FASTING. I hope I can make the most of this month. I can already say, I can alsready see how big my nafs is, without all teh setan disturbing me. I also met jibby on saturday arvo. so adorable, he talked heaps to me and I had him get his face painted at teh creche and he was absolutley delighted to look like the star wars bad guy, he couldn't stop looking at the mirror and making awful faces. *heart* I am trying to stop backbiting and stop listneing to it. It's kinda hard, because you want to say something about a person, I stop and think, am I gossiping behind their back? But I read a hadith that says, even if what you say is is true, that is still backbitng. If it it's not true, it's called slander which is bad too. ok no more internet follies as well!! peace out. aarrgggh drop a note;

[21 Feb 2008|11:51pm] one of my friends sent me one of the most disarming, touching, comforting e-mails ever. I feel so blessed because sometimes I think I am not worhty of such love from these incredible people. Ya Allah, please keep them safe, and keep them in my life. ( 1 ) drop a note;

[07 Jan 2008|01:16am] hello.. this is boring. I am reading a book and its so heavy, I have to pause to digest it and re-read the last few pages. And I still don't really get the big picture yet. Oh yeah, it's called A brief History of the Middle East. x_X But it's really interesting and puts in perspective heaps of things. Oh yeah if u haven't heard, I can cycle. YAY finally. ( 2 ) drop a note;

History geeeeeek! [27 Nov 2007|08:59am] Oh wow, they may have just found the bodies of Anastasia & Alexei Romanov. What a sad ending, no Anastasia mystery anymore. I still can't get over how amazing this world is, how history changes so quickly. I still remember my reaction to 9/11, and what I was doing during the Iraq, how my reaction during the intense period of Intifada, etc, etc, etc. mmmm, i actually enjoy history. I've been told it's stupid: if you had a choice to travel between the past & future, I'd stick with the past, because there's so many things I'd like to know and see and experience. Somehow, there are those sad tragedies and indescribable feelings that come with past wars, broken hearts, splendour and avarice of the priveleged. I want to know!! let the future be a secret to be untold!!!! ( 2 ) drop a note;

[26 Nov 2007|07:34pm] update on my life. no house... as of now... homeless on Nov 30th. still looking. I'm doubtful about the one we applied for. omg, what am I gg to do til Dec 19th? Oh yeah... I'm going to stay in Rockingham probably!! oh so far away...      and I don't know. Now I have to decide which cloethes to keep in and live out of. and which ones to keep forever and ever in a box. :( come on, more 3 bedroom houses nearby. anyway, thanks to julzdarling, I'm going to get hooked on twilight and been watching this fanvid she showed... feat the devastatingly gorge Gaspard Ulliel and the aussie Emily Browning. ( 3 ) drop a note;

[17 Nov 2007|12:03pm] omg so lazy to pack. now must find boxes. anyway, i just realised i called the wrong agent then now we have a double thing for that really exp house and the intermediate house... must call asap on monday. my retail therapy wasn't that satisfying... I still want sushi but omg i met Sr Andalib and her boys yest at Harbortown. I was "Khamsa, Khamsa" with Himi! time for a new layout! drop a note;

[16 Nov 2007|01:10am] I've decided after tonight: Shamaa's so adorable!! gorgeous!! She's the new favourite!! :D She's already 2! So small! And her mother's so gorgeous too! No wonder she wears the tie-up niqab! :) drop a note;

[15 Nov 2007|07:27pm] oh noees optech results tmr... i feel so nervous, i'm literaly shaking. drop a note;

[12 Nov 2007|11:18pm] omg, why am I acting like I'm holiday... It must be the so hot the ice-cream in teh shops are soft kinda weather. :((((((( Malas. I am really confused and stressed in a way, about supps n exams n maybe housing. Argh. drop a note;

[11 Nov 2007|07:48pm] come on come on, pull myself, last week 3 more 3 more 3 more This awkward late night marathons are killing me, I've become one of those zombies that need some caffeine to kick-start my day! ONOZ OMGZ And the weather.... I promise to shut up next time I feel extremely cold. At least we can bundle up if it's cold. What can you do when the temperature's soaring? strip down to nothingness and savour the UVRAYS frying your skin? I dont think so... it means time for shopping for light airy skirts and dresses and lightweight cardigans just lightweight and airy... that's what I aim for ... that's where I'm headed.. :))))) I CANT WAIT... til after exams And yes yay go out with my girlfriendss yay! I cant wait for Mama to come, then I can show her all the cool people in Perth, she wants to meet Rajaa's mom since forever. I talked to Ahmed today, he was telling me to take one of the guys' bikes. He's so funny and he is so happy his dad is back from "amerrikaaaa!" And Siraj was so shy at first but later he was showing some funny toy he had. I swear ice-cream was invented for days like these... I don't know if I like daylight savings, it's so awkward to wait til 9.20 for ishak but that's better than waking up at 3.30 for subuh.. or is it? then onoz omgz results or onoz omgzx10000 because it can come out before if something goes wrong but nvmlah. i am so thirsty byeee drop a note;

[11 Nov 2007|01:43am] an update... on life as I see it right now. right now, i'm sitting in my room looking in amazement at the numerous bugs flying around. where the heck did they come from?????? they're heaps tiny... about 1 mm wide probably 3 mm long. I killed heaps but some are still flying around... Are they from outside, attracted ot the light? The more I kill, the more appear. I've got 2 trapped b the water bowl under light trick. ONly 2! So smart. They're all attracted to the white wall and white papers on the table! Its really annoying. urgh, everytime i finish a sentence, I stop to squish one. one week of exams done, 4 down (including some traumatising ones), 3 more to go. urgh, I don't know what to with myself sometimes. I don't know what I do with myself sometimes. Anyway, I cant wait til exams are over. I'm over the omg, onoz what if I fail thing. no matter what, things are in control, and I'm preparing myself for the best and my parents support me and that's all that matters.(although you will always feel guilty in some way or another, because I fear I always lack motivation to achieve my fullest potential) All the backtalking, fundamental attribution errors will come later, but I will do what I can now. I'm returning back home iA 19th Dec, due to ... some *circumstances* I have been warned about... I was worried about Uni, I was worried about flying back, I was anxious about accomodation, I found it so hard to concentrate at times... but I guess we all get over things. Now, if I can just find a proper way to tell the people that matter and I think should know... Sometimes it's so hard. I think I'm a self-presentation kinda person ie my behaviours dont always align with my attitudes most of the time, because I'm trying to present myself in a certain way. Haiz. Sometimes, it's so hard to reach self-actualisation, accept and care for yourself and do all those things the humanists wants you to achieve. Yay for Ahmed Bukhatir though!! يا من يرى ما كان مني في الزمان الأول Oh Who Sees! Forgive me, for what I have previously done hmmm i miss seeing the kids... I wonder if Sr Sakeenah has given birth! exciting!! drop a note;

[01 Nov 2007|03:16pm] crap, i might have to be stuck in perth all summer grarrgggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh :~(~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ( 3 ) drop a note;

[01 Nov 2007|11:36am] aaah booking ticket back so leceh because I need to change my date. If she doesn't reply to me by today, I'm gg to go the the STA here. *grumble. I found the perfect way to stay up late, an adjunct to chocolate and mocha: LAUGHING! after Lydia S' funny e-mail, I discovered engrish.com ! so funny! YAY urghhhh drop a note;

cryptic notes [29 Oct 2007|06:18pm] brain exploding time. :/ happy mugging everyone! why do i do this everytime? foresee the year on repeat, same old nonsense coming the next time round and no one to save me anymore, because one more go at it, one more chance, doesn't gurantee anything. drop a note;

[20 Oct 2007|09:03am] sami yusuf's new song: good :) I love the supplication bit at the end. Jimmy Eat World's new CD 'Chase this Light': hmmm. I think it's a bit better than Futures, similar to Bleed American but not as good. Some songs are really nice. I think there are 2 kinds of JEW fans, new ones from BA onwards, that like the direction on Futures, and the old ones who liked BA fine but long for the Clarity-style releases. I think Clarity was the best ever in terms of musicality (in my interests). Lyrically, Chase This Light seems to be the weakest. Maybe it requires a few more listening. But my favourite JEW songs (in order of newest release to older) - Disintegration - Polaris - Sweetness - A Praise Chorus - Ten - Just watch the fireworks - And then I can't decide anymore because I can't choose (Claire, Gdbye Sky Harbour, Table for Glasses, Sunday, Softer) Actually looking back, I like where JEW is gg because if they went back in terms of music, everyone would compare it to Clarity and that would be a hard thing to follow up with. drop a note;

Eid-il-fitr [14 Oct 2007|04:01pm] [ mood | tired ] Photo essay ( what a tiring but blessed daaaaaay ) to be c'nued... Malamnya, we played with bunga api, still waiting for the pictures!!!!!!! ( 1 ) drop a note;

:) [13 Oct 2007|06:44pm] HOPE EVERYONE HAD A BRILLIANT HARI RAYA :) Alhamdullillah, I feel so blessed again. Pictures soon, after editing, I got an invitiation and bunga api playdate to get ready for!! BUT OMG I TOOK PICTURE WITH MY HABIBI HIMI!! HE'S SO CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE And Siraj is absolutely the sweetest one Earth 'And He gave you from all you asked of Him. And if you should count the favour of Allah, you could not enumerate them. Indeed mankind is most unjust and ungreatful' --Surah Ibraheem, ayat 34 (!!) [ 14:34] ( 1 ) drop a note;

[23 Sep 2007|10:21pm] How's everyone's Ramadhan been going? I hope it's good, about 1/3 our way through, how quick is that. It's been up and down for me, a lot of the down comes from Uni. I'm actually finding myself incredibly pressed for time now, and so many conflicting interests that arise from it. still.... Haha, I've been eating a LOT of good rice + briyani dam-ish style of meats. :))))))))))))))))))) Seen all the cute little kids like HIMI!!! *snortts*, why is it always Ramadhan when a sister asks if anyone wants to get married because some other brother is ready??? Also, is it just me or is the world getting very fertile? The fecundity of the people I know amaze me, heaps of people have given birth or are pregnant this year. - Kak Azean - Kak Jia - Kak Aishah - KAK Hasni - Sr Sakeenah - Aisha N Or maybe i have actually reached the stage in life where the people I mix with are of that age/stage. ;) Nvm, heaps of babies to look forward toooo Yay *smothers in happy baby kiddie thoughts* ( 2 ) drop a note;

Ramadhan Karim [14 Sep 2007|12:21am] Yes Ramadhan has started again. :) And it started with the same confusion of deciding if I should follow by moon-sighintg (hence starting on Thursday night because they couldn't see the moon) or calendar (starting on Wed night, like Singapore!!) Well, either way, I still couldn't fast on Thursday, but luckily finished by the evening so can terawih!! Anyway, I am really scared once again, I really hope in all sincerity that whatever ibadah I put forth is done with the best of the right niat, gets accepted and not tainted by other things like ria'. Because I just read: Abu Huraira RA related that Rasulullah SAW said: Many people who fast get nothing from their fast except hunger and thirst, and many people who pray at night get nothing from it except wakefulness (Darimi) And I realised, man it's my ownself that is weak, even with all the syaithan locked up, I still have SO MUCH failings. Astarghfirullah. I have a list of things to achieve insyaAllah during Ramadhan, insyaAllah I hope to see it through. And no, Ramadhan isn't just about not eating n drinking from dawn to dusk. It has much more deeper, more significant purposes than that. About self-control and discipline and attaining piety, searching for Allah's blessing. I can't write anymore, must wake up in 4 hours to sahur (eat!) Have a fruitful Ramadhan insyaAllah my fellow Muslims :)))))))))) ( 2 ) drop a note;

Susan Cooper PWNS JK Rowling big time!!!! [19 Aug 2007|01:36pm] This is long overdue. I celebrated my 21st almost one week ago. Not in a big bang style like some people would expect or want to do. Birthdays away from my family seems so pointless and less meaningful, no offence to anyone. And huge huge parties to celebrate special ages are way overrated. But nonetheless I feel so blessed with the people who took the time to remember and wish me, or those who remembered way in advance!!! (xoxo az, yanti, li, sq) xoxo you guys I feel so bad though, because i wish i had the facilities to invite the close friends and cook stuff for them or go out, but i have no car and my place isnt' teh best of places to eat. And I'm not the best of cooks. And right now, I don't feel that generous with time. But it was a great day, esp my dear loved friends here took so much effort to make it special. xoxo rajaa, sidrah, lydz h, karena, gen, lydia s, sanj, darsh, priyal, siti, indira, marl. And then on friday we went out for Priyal's 19th. That was great fun!! And I wore the skirt you guys gave me!!!!!!! If only I had the Sarah/Amal bag then. Anyhow, i've got 2 hrs 15 minutes left til end of 40 hour famine and I'm pretty sick of drinking milk and I feel so tired, I'm so hungry!!!! And I was playing with Baby Himi today at the musollah!! *SQUEEEE he's sooooo cute. I have no idea what he's blabbering about in Arabic, he looks at me confused when I ask where's his bro Siraj and doesn't answer. Oooh Ibrahim, you're so cute *muacks* Internet at home is slow, so... I'm in the library now. ( 1 ) drop a note;

the night journey [10 Aug 2007|07:27pm] I am really tired, I am going to crawl into bed. ...but not before... "Allah Almighty wanted Al-Israa’ and Al-Mi`raj be an alleviation and relief to His Prophet (peace and blessings be upon him). He Almighty wanted to tell His Prophet that if the people of the earth had let him down, the people of heaven were there to support him; if the people of the earth had rejected his call, Allah Almighty would receive him and His Prophets (peace and blessings be upon them) would follow him and he would be their imam. The second most important lesson that we are to learn from Al-Israa’ and Al-Mi`raj is concerning Prayer. It is known that Prayer was ordained on that great night. It is because of the great importance of Prayer that Allah Almighty ordained it in heaven. He Almighty sent for His Messenger to mankind (peace and blessings be upon him) and caused him to go on a night journey and ascend to heaven and the Lote Tree to inform him (peace and blessings be upon him) of the ordinance of Prayer. Mind that all other ordinances were decreed on the earth. This indicates how important Prayer is in Islam. It symbolizes ascension to heaven; it is the Muslim's spiritual ascension to heaven." ~ Dr Sheikh Yusuf Al-Qaradawi ... drop a note;

[05 Aug 2007|08:13pm] I am torn between wanting to watch The Dark is Rising or to join the boycott against the movie. because deep down I know, it's going to be a disappointment of the book. But nonetheless, I've got the date October 4th all remembered in my mind. And I'm dying to see the effects, which were kept to a minimum of CGI and a lot of real-life flooding & flames. WHOOO! I am going to read the whole series again!!!! It's worth every penny I spent getting it from Amazon.com when no bookshop I went to had it stocked. ( 2 ) drop a note;

[21 Jul 2007|07:01pm] I HAVEN'T BOUGHT THE HARRY POTTER BOOK YET!!! NO SPOILERS PLEASE!!!!!! Don't you dare rant about it in Livejournal/blog without a cut + WARNING! And on MSN! If you do, I will stab you twice over with an injection needle rife with Mycobacterium tubercolosis. thanks. :) ( 2 ) drop a note;

sad little bird [07 Jul 2007|10:53pm] [ mood | lonely ] [ music | not ready to make nice- dixie chicks ] I miss the people in Singapore just too much right now. I don't know how many times will it take before this gets any easier. I know, heaps of people do this all the time, I don't know how much harder or easier it is for them. It always starts with the eerie silence of an empty house that just magnifies the hollow longing deep within my heart. I suppose it gets better when I get stressed out with the work that I have yet to complete. I remember about 24 hours ago I was standing in the midst of the chaos of the family gathering, so fervently wishing I could stop time. Nonetheless I really should stop indulgining in this wistful thoughts, because it's really pointless and nothing is worse than idleness to intensify the anxiety. So much blessings to be grateful for, despite it all. Alhamdullillah Jazakallah bil khair. ily all! ( 4 ) drop a note;

[06 Jul 2007|01:17pm] BOO! I was trying to burn a CD for my mother when I realised that my CD/DVD drive isn't working. It's not reading anything! GRAGH! And I can't get it repaired because I'm gg back tomorrow morning! :( And now I cannot burn one for Rajaa in return for the Sami Yusuf one she burnt for me. Oh well. I should really pack now. So lazy to pack. All the clothes and books and stuffs. I hope I don't leave anything behind. Very ma-fan. Been procrastinating my packing. bohoohoo ( 2 ) drop a note;

wow [02 Jul 2007|10:44pm] this holiday has been a whirl-wind adventure of non-stop (almost) activity. Haha I exaggerate. But everyday it's been some meeting/date/gathering of some form. I hardly have time to sit down and study, what more do the assignments. And when I do have the time, I feel very lazy lah, because I'm stuck in the mindset of... it's HOLIDAYSSSSS!!! Anyway, yes been busy: mainly because my aunt + uncle from Germany came down with my uncle's elder (?) sister so we have to bring them around as well. But it's been great to see a lot of people and talk to them, even though for a little while. Because somehow, everyone's grown a bit older, wiser (MAYBE?) and more open and just want to extend the silaturrahim. (or tighten it?) ( +++ PEEKCHAAAS ) On a brief but sombre note, I visited the cemetery on Sunday morning as well. I have never been there before, prior to this. It was never really deemed necessary, for a young woman to go there anyway. But maybe the time had come just to see how it is, given teh inevitability of it all. It's not disturbing per se, but it gets you thinking. Well, the whole purpose to go there is to menginsafkan diri ( to humble the soul and open the heart towards repentence). I could say so much more, but I'll save it for some other occasion. ( 2 ) drop a note;

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